Feeding The Soul

AngieIn my early twenties I was obsessed with my image. My rational mind was concrete in the understanding that people would think me more beautiful and ultimately love me more if my lovely hip bones protruded out of my side. It was a vicious circle; the less I fed myself the less energy I had, and the less energy I had, the poorer my self image became.

Life became a game about how little I could eat in a day, keeping a constant food diary to tally to the low marks. I felt triumphant when I hit my lower than average scores and disheartened if I strayed a point or two above my preferred result.

Now in my thirties, I look back on this time with wonder and sometimes sorrow. Sorrow not only for the lack of life led during that time, but sorrow in recognition of the millions of women in the world who look poorly upon themselves and live an almost entire existence focused on how they look rather than creating the life they dream of. Being the warrior, being the transformer, being the brightest version of themselves.

In our society, health is far too often perceived in how slender a woman looks. When one of our friends lose weight, it’s generally a point of conversation (“Wow, you look fantastic!”). Fashion encourages this understanding with figure-hugging clothing to show off all our curves.

But health comes in many different shapes and sizes and, like our desire to live in a racially accepting  world, so too we need to live in a body accepting society.

For the most part, I am pretty good at accepting others, but can I honestly say I always accept myself and the shape of my body? The answer is no, and when I’m in that frame of mind, my food choices are hugely influenced by this this course of thinking – and generally drop toward some kind of depravation.

So how am I going to nourish myself when my understanding of health is based around looking a certain way,  in itself a skewed image based on conditioned thoughts? The truth is, I’m not completely able to and the cycle continues.

Each body carries itself differently and with a slight shift of perception we can begin to fully accept ourselves as we are, eating a healthy diet suited to our individual selves, exercising and living a happy fulfilled life.

The next time that frame of mind kicks in, greet it like an old friend and gently explain that it’s time for a little self-loving. A bath with candles, some beautiful music, a meditation and a deeply nourishing meal that completely satisfies. Not the meal that the brain says to eat because “you need to look a certain way”, but the meal the soul craves, like Mum’s chicken soup, the one that brings you back into balance and into your heart space.

When we feel good about ourselves, the choices we make are more in line with what we need to be healthy. Imagine what people could contribute to humanity and the planet if they spent just half the time they spent worrying about how they looked and focused it into creation and transformation? Now there’s an inspiring thought.


  • Beautiful, inspirational article Angie – thank you!

    Karen-Anne Wong2 July, 2013
  • Angie…
    Thank you for your honest and beautiful writing…
    … as women today our journey is complicated by so many things…
    Or have we complicated it?
    I remember feeling the same as you…
    …. being in industries where people judge you constantly does not help…
    Coming to a place of loving and acceptance within yourself is not only empowering ,
    It is freeing…..
    Where ever I am at now ….
    Gazing gently upon the being that I have become… Knowing there is so much more…
    Thank you for shining your light Angie

    Annamaria Tizzone2 July, 2013

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